In a mansion with no lights on, monks, nuns and priests sat beneath pictures of Jesus. Nobody smiled. There were no satanic symbols anywhere. And it belonged to Satan. In this second episode with former Catholic monk Patrick, he shares a guided vision of the lands that lead people to hell, and a dream that showed him how deception can look holy.
New to Patrick’s story? Start with part one: “I Thought It Was Jesus”: A Former Monk’s Warning About Spiritual Deception. Viewer discretion: this episode describes intense spiritual experiences. It is Patrick’s personal account.
A guide on the prayer mountain
At his second monastery, deep in the woods, Patrick was sleeping only about two hours a night because of constant spiritual attacks. So he spent most nights on the community’s prayer mountain. One morning before sunrise, he felt a presence sit down behind him, as if they were in a vehicle together, and a vision began to play in his mind.
At first, the being told him he could keep his little Bible. Then, as the journey began, it told him to put the Bible down. Patrick refused, and tucked it inside his habit. He believes that one detail tells him who his guide really was.
The land of anger
The vision began like an old video game: a flat map of brown land and smoky, orange-lit sky, zooming in on one region. Patrick saw three lifeless giants staring blankly ahead, their bodies hollowed out and packed with tier upon tier of people, spilling out down a slope.
Everyone there was half human and half animal, mostly jaguars and dogs. The more violent the life they had lived, the more of them was animal. They yelled, gnashed and fought whenever they touched. A vibration ran through the whole place that kept them locked in rage.
Patrick understood they were people who had lived only by their emotions, never rising to God’s commands to forgive and show compassion. He believes they weren’t yet in hell itself, but in the state that leads there. “We’re all kind of half in and half out,” he says. The light was hazy, like smoke. “This is all the smoke of Satan,” he says.
The line that tried to adopt him
A line formed in front of Patrick, as if the beings were trying to take charge of his life and become his guiding spirit. Each time, he quietly prayed to Jesus, and each time they rejected him.
He was taken through three more lands. One was a dim, endless carnival of self-indulgence, with no vision of God at all. Another was full of people racing on motorcycles and vehicles under their own power: a land of self-strength and self-will, and, he says, of great deception. The vision lasted about three hours. When it ended, the sun was well up.
Patrick believes he was shown the anger land for a reason. As a monk, he had been taught to suppress his emotions, and a quiet anger had been building inside him. About a month later, God delivered him from it.
What anger really is
When God set him free, Patrick says the Lord gave him a definition: “Anger is the lack of control in loss.” Something is being taken from you, your innocence, your peace or your possessions, and you won’t let it go.
Abigail adds that anger is usually born out of offence, and that as children of God, we don’t have the right to be offended. She points to Jesus’ call to turn the other cheek and go the extra mile, and recommends John Bevere’s teaching The Bait of Satan. “If you poke a dead person, are they going to do anything?” she asks. Dead to ourselves, alive in Christ.
Satan’s mansion
Just a couple of months before recording, Patrick dreamed he was standing outside an L-shaped mansion in the style of the early 1900s, with hedges and a fountain out front. Inside, no lights were on. Everything glowed a dim, veiled blue.
He was shown that he had entered this mansion through his monastic vows. In the religious wing, near the heart of the house, were monks, nuns and priests. There were pictures of Jesus and Mary, a place for prayers, a dining table. But no one showed joy or peace. Their faces were only serious.
What frightened Patrick most was that he saw no satanic symbols at all. He believes Satan has two paths. One is open rebellion, the flesh and outright Satanism, marked with all its symbols. The other is religion without Christ, which looks normal and holy, and is far more deceptive.
Further into the house, among ordinary married life, Patrick was confronted for keeping a “secret room”. Inside was a beautiful woman who represented the gospel. He was accused of being unfaithful to Satan by still reading Scripture and turning to Jesus. “I take that as a badge of honour,” he says. Since that dream, he feels he has been walking out of the mansion for good.
Praying in the hospital
Today Patrick works as a nursing assistant on a cancer ward, where he faces real spiritual resistance whenever God prompts him to pray with a patient. He prays anyway. He has sat with people in their final moments, and led one man to profess Jesus before he died. “If I get fired for Jesus, whatever,” he says.
Abigail encourages everyone to pray over hospitals and clinics as they pass. As former warlock John Ramirez has described, even a small group of praying believers can push back darkness over a whole area.
When calamity becomes an altar
Before closing, Patrick shares a warning. In 2021, four people close to him died within two weeks. He believes that when calamity piles up, the enemy tries to build an altar out of your grief and anger, hoping you’ll turn away from God so that pain becomes the foundation of your life in his kingdom.
“There’s stuff happening behind the scenes that you don’t see,” he says. Stay with Jesus, and that altar amounts to nothing. And, Abigail adds, build an altar to God, and never let its fire go out.
Scriptures in this episode
- Luke 16:22, carried into Abraham’s bosom
- Ephesians 4:26–27, be angry, and sin not
- Matthew 5:39–41, turn the other cheek, go the second mile
- Galatians 2:20, I am crucified with Christ
- 2 Timothy 3:5, a form of godliness, denying the power
- Exodus 34:14, the Lord, whose name is Jealous
- Deuteronomy 32:30, one chase a thousand, two put ten thousand to flight
- Jonah 2:2–6, out of the belly of hell
- Leviticus 6:13, the fire shall ever be burning upon the altar
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